Yeah I'm supposed to be writing a paper right now but...I find myself slipping slowly into madness. I think as I grow older my attention span for the things I don't want to do just gets smaller and smaller. Shouldn't it be the opposite, shouldn't I be the man at doing things I don't want to do. At least now I'm learning how to do things before an absurd hour of the night, I just sit and pace myself while I listen to music. I am listening to the Album Leaf too and you know what I thought I really didn't like them that much but now that I am just sitting listening to them I really do like them. I found they are pretty awesome, it's a revelation. Actually the song that just came on reminds me of the beginning of the summer when I laid on my back deck and looked at the stars listening to my ipod. I saw a shooting star that night... I thought it was a good sign but I guess it was nothing more than just another thing to look at. Oh my! Where has the summer gone? It's already October 17th, it's like a joke. What happened to the first half of October did we skip it this year so we could get to halloween sooner. Is it the year of the pumpkin in Japan or something. I guess time flies when you're having fun right? Yeah I guess I've been having an okay time but there are so many things I wanted in my life at this age that I just don't have. If I saw a glimpse of myself now when I was in 7th grade would I be happy with the way I turned out? Who knows I guess...unless you know of a good time machine I can use there's no fricken way I'm ever gonna look back so this whole paragraph is completely and utterly ridiculous. Ooh yeah now the Jew left Qdoba too and that's just utterly depressing. I think I might try to find a more rewarding job, I don't think Qdoba is really my style. Don't get me wrong or anything it's not that bad, just not for me. Oh yes I can choose to not participate in xanga whenever I want friends of mine who said mean comments to me, that doesn't mean I don't like it or that I'm a hypocrite I just don't feel like writing sometimes. I can take a break if I want, and I hardly pay attention to my other sites too they are just more self sustaining and it's fun to do almost no work and still have a bunch of new people want to be your friend all the time. So yeah there's my spiel... I guess I'm done rambling on for today Cya later everybody I hope I don't depress you I like to try to be encouraging not depressing | 
